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SPC #9 - avoidance


Self Portrait Challenge, October '06 - Imperfection, week 2

I do not, actually, have to avoid the paparazzi (in fact, I AM the paparazzi... at least in this house), but I have and still do make a career out of avoidance.

It's at the root of my procrastination, I think. I would rather do almost anything than confront: confront people, confront pain, confront uncomfortableness. In my transient lifestyle as a child, if I ignored or avoided something long enough, it usually would go away -- or I would go away from it. All the same.

I realized a while back that the fear and apprehension of pain is worse than the pain itself. Or at least, makes the pain itself so much worse. The more I open and allow the feeling to enter, and then pass, the more bearable it is. Still working on it, to be more conscious about it.

The second thing I want most to learn now: courage.


oh, yeah. I hear ya.

I love the avoidance theme, photo and explanation. All great, and I completely understand ;)

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